How is lockdown life treating you?
Can you believe we are now entering our 13th week of lockdown – I know rules have been relaxed ‘slightly’ but we are still living in a totally different world than the beginning of the year!
I am not going to lie – some times have been so hard! And the reason for me not blogging as often as I wanted too was because I have put off thinking about anything in any depth! My life has been in a little bubble of juggling the girls at home, being mega busy with Tropic, redecorating the house (well my husband has but its still something extra to deal with!) and just trying to maintain my exercise regime and control my chocolate intake. I am sure this list is just like the list from so many other people – we are all in this together, each with our own set of problems that lockdown brings.
I mentioned in a past post A letter to my readers…………. that one of my main stresses and triggers is not knowing what is happening and plans being changed. 2020 was going to be such an amazing year – I had so much planned. I had done a mood board in December last year, full of all my hopes, goals and dreams for the year ahead. It was the first time I had ever done a mood board and I felt pretty proud of it, its got pride of place in my office just next to my desk where I can look at it all the time and remind myself of what I want to achieve this year.
Well as the lockdown days turned into weeks, I can not tell you how much I have wanted to throw this mood board out of the window! It has caused me so much stress, showing me all of my plans and dreams that have had to be cancelled for this year.
Like so many people I have spoken to lockdown has created a roller-coaster of emotions, and I have been exactly the same. Some days feeling so positive that I have done so much, and other days not even getting out of my pj’s and being amazed that I’ve manged to just feed the kids. Apart from my girls being my reason for everything, the other two things that have got me through those days have been my job – everything about Tropic is positive plus some sort of exercise, even just walking the dog. But paramount in all of this is that even at my lowest point I didn’t pick up a drink! Believe me some days I would have happily escaped how I felt with a bottle or two of Pinot.
It was around the 21st May – my sober milestone of three and a half years sober, that my mindset began to change. I took a step back and started to look at the positives, the main one being I had got through all of this SOBER. The positivity I got from my Insta page was just unbelievable, plus I am in a Facebook group called The Alcohol Experiment – I think I got over 600 likes and a hundred of comments – It was seriously a gamechanger for me. My mindset changed over night – I had a really good chat with myself, I needed to get a grip, I was inspiring other people. People were looking at me and watching – I needed to be strong for them. You guys – my followers, ,my sober warriors, I needed to be strong for you !
I now accept that things are far from ideal, and we are a long way from ‘normal’ life and seeing our loved ones with no restrictions. Yes we have had to cancel or postpone a lot of things we had planned but these things will happen and we will cherish them even more.
So when I look at my mood board now, I am slowly starting to love it again. Mood boards ideally should cover 5 areas of your life, Career, Home, Relationship, Travel and Wellbeing/growth. They help you find your direction and set your goals. The idea is that you look at your board regularly and those things should manifest in your life – it’s the perfect example of the power of positivity.
And now that I can bring myself to look at my board again without wanting to smash it into a million pieces I can see that I HAVE achieved some of the things on there without even thinking about it.
Career – I wanted to grow my little business and become a Manager – I have now got a team of 11, my business has doubled in size and I have definitely smashed working from home! my mood board has a photo of Alan Sugar and Susie Ma, who I was meant to meet in March as I was promoted to manager but will no doubt now meet next year.
Home – I wanted to make my home more cosy, redecorate, and just focus on enjoying time at home and making it a safe place, somewhere that my girls want to be as they grow up. Well that has certainly come true in lockdown – My picture on my board was fairy lights and people snuggled by the fire with hot chocolate whoch has been a very regular lockdown scene!
Relationship – My plan was to make more time for US, more date nights and time on our own. That hasn’t happened at all, more like the opposite but we HAVE supported each other through this and the different challenges we have faced. My husband is my rock which I have always known, but this past few months have really highlighted and reminded me, we are a real team, best friends. Plus he’s amazing at decorating -ha!
Travel – We have had holidays rebooked, cancelled, rebooked! And I really miss holidays. But we do have a huge list of what we want to do and where we want to go when all of this is over, and I feel like holidays will feel extra special.
Wellbeing/Growth – The sober me LOVES challenges and pushing myself out of my comfort zone ( read my past post You Didnt Come This Far To Only Come This Far!)and I had planned a sky dive at 45 for my 45th Birthday (still time to do that!) My picture showed two skydivers with the quote “Take Every Risk Drop Every Fear”
Being a Bodypump Instructor and as you know I love my weights, I also had a picture that said “Lifting weights doesn’t make people huge, cup cakes make people huge!” And after a couple of months of more chocolate and cake and less weights – yes that’s true!
So guys all is not lost, giving up is not an option. 2020 can still be a good year.
If this is you right now and you are struggling, please just take a step back and see how far you have come. You owe it to yourself not to give up. And if you are In the early days of sobriety you are a sober Rockstar and I salute you – remember we didn’t come this far to only come this far. Lockdown has taken so much away from us – don’t let it take your positivity, pride and sobriety.
If you have never made a mood board – try it! Such a positive thing to do and it gives you something to focus on if nothing else. Think of what you want to fit into this next six months of 2020!
How have you survived lockdown, any tips or advice – please let me know in comments
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Love Angie xx