I apologise to anyone who follows me on Instagram because it’s the second time I have used this pic since Saturday, yes its me making star jumps whilst out on a run early Saturday morning! I’ve used it again because this picture sums up how I feel most of the time now I have stopped drinking – yes there are off days but ninety percent of the time I am in star jump mode!!!!!!!!!!
” I Didn’t Get Sober To Sit On The Couch”
Now this is a quote (unknown) that I have seen so many times on Instagram and social media and I never really understood it until I was around 10-11 months sober, then suddenly it clicked! For the first twelve months I was just counting down to the big ‘one year of not drinking’ and yes I was exercising regularly and feeling good in myself, which for the first months was the reward I needed, I felt amazing but this quote still didn’t register with me.
It was only around the ten month mark that I started thinking …………what happens after the first twelve months, what next? Do I carry on my journey? Do I try and moderate? Do I drift back into my old habits and just have this 12 months as proof that I can do it? (Gosh the thought of going back to that makes me feel physically sick , the wheels would fall off big time!)
NO – I wanted to take my journey further, I needed to take the next step that came naturally ………. so my little blog was born followed by my Instagram page, which this weekend got to over one thousand followers, woo hoo I still can’t quite believe it! Having a blog and Instagram page is something I could never have imagined the old me doing, I didn’t believe in myself enough to do something like that. It is what other people do but not me. But here I am 22 months sober and it’s happening. And that’s the key, stopping drinking alcohol has made this possible for me for a number of reasons:-
- I have confidence in myself that I have never had before.
- It has given me so much more free time to do the things I love. I am no longer planning my time around wine time and hangovers. I’ve got 24 hours a day to spend, fully functional, full of energy on whatever I want!
- I don’t have the niggling negativity that I would get after a boozy weekend, the self-doubt and anxiety I talked about in my last post (read it hereAlcohol & Anxiety, …….
- I discovered my love of lifting weights and the amazing feeling of being strong both inside and out.
- I’ve found that there is a whole new world out there in social media, of people sharing their stories and who are on a similar journey to me. All supporting one another. People who build you up not knock you down.
This week I am taking another step forward in my journey, a big step for me…………….. I am hopefully looking at becoming a fitness instructor in January 2019. So this week I am mixing my exercise up a little and i’ve got a three-day pass for a local gym to try all of their classes and help me make a decision in what I want to teach. I never thought I would be looking at this as an option, it’s the sort of job that I would look at and feel envious of people doing it. I could never be that fit, healthy, in shape or confident enough to do that. But that was the old me, and although I do keep having a bit of a wobble about it, I just know that I will give it my all and love every part of the process even if it does scare me to death somedays, deep down I know I can do it- it something that I’m excited about!
When you stop drinking or even if you’re trying to cut down its so easy to focus on what you’re giving up, but instead focus on everything you have to gain. Think of all the things you want to do but haven’t had the confidence or self-worth to do them. Alcohol feeds all your negative emotions, it enables you to escape your reality. By stopping drinking you create so much space to create a life you love and achieve things that you have only dreamt of in the past.
So now I understand the quote “I didn’t get sober to sit on the couch” I have spent hours and hours sat on my couch sipping wine, and now I want to make up for that. You don’t necessarily have to be signing up for mud runs or becoming a fitness instructor, you may want to write a book, learn a language, travel more, make a career move, make a relationship move even or just start your own blog??? The list of possibilities are endless! Write your list down of what you want to achieve and make that your motivation to stop drinking, to start or continue on your sober journey. There’s a whole new world out there for the sober you, stop letting alcohol hold you back!
If your following me on Instagram @lifitingweightsnotwine I will be posting my exercise challenge updates on there daily to keep myself and anyone else motivated and I apologise in advance for any future star jump pics!!!
Wishing you all a happy, healthy week ahead.